Tuesday, April 21, 2015

食慾 不見了

找不回 對食物的那份熱情

被壓抑的食慾 也漸漸消失

食慾 不見了?
身體 怎麼了?

也許 是時候跟那微胖的身體 說聲再見

找不回 那晶瑩剔透 那水嫩嫩的

在窩里 蠢蠢慾睡 也不是辦法

臉蛋 怎麼了 
歲月 逃不了

這身軀好像不再屬於我了
拖著 拖著 也真的好累
但也不願意 讓別人知道

別再問我 過的怎麼樣
就讓我在這 歇一歇吧

Monday, October 20, 2014

Niagara Falls, NY

For generations, the majestic beauty and humbling power of the Niagara Falls has fostered a sense of awe and wonder. They are the largest waterfalls in North America and the second largest waterfalls in the world after Victoria Falls in Zimbabwe, Africa.



That was my first trip once I'd settled down in the states. This 2 days 1 night trip was organized by our employer which costed me $160 (includes transportation and hotel only). I still remember that was my first 9 hours bus ride, departing from Wildwood. Also, a pain in the ass, literally.


Needless to say, Cave of the winds is a must-go place, of course, if you want a better view of the fall like this:

Good thing if you travelled in group you will get some discount. I remember we took a tour package if I am not mistaken.

The next thing is, The Maid of the Mist tour.

Well, this is also something that you must go for. I will show you some pictures and you will know why.
That shot, priceless.
That man behind me, why do you have to photo bomb? Don't chu know that I'm tourist too~

Well, as for this 4D Adventure, I highly recommend that you should just skip it instead.

Next stop would be the Whirl Pool State Park.

Too much photographs for this posts, I should end this with a photo of Niagara Falls taken at night.

Looking back at the old photographs really makes me wanna travel again.
I had just realized how much I have changed physically and mentally.

Summer 2011, Niagara Falls, USA.

xoxo
Jin signing off.

Sunday, June 8, 2014

The Complete WORST CASE SCENARIO survival handbook.


Missing the wonderlust life badly.

I need more adventure in my life.
If I made it alive, I will have hell lots of story to tell.

I stumble across this really inspiring video the other day 
featuring the voice of Alan Watts (1915 - 1973), a british philosopher,
talking about
What would you like to do with your life if money was no object?


Better to have a short life that is full of which you like doing then a long life spent in a miserable way - Alan Watts

what do I desire most?
 I'm still looking for an answer.

and I figured, 
I can live without designer handbags,
I can live without love (as in boy and girl fallin' in love kind of shit)
but I can't live without happiness.

That's not a very solid answer,
in the end I realized, it's not that easy.

and you know what?
This is life, my friend.
LIFE.

fuck yeah.

Jin here, 
signing off with love,
xoxo.




Monday, May 12, 2014

What am I doing?

I want to live a life like there's no tomorrow.
It sounded as easy as it seems to be.
The truth is, it isn't.

Keep asking myself the same old question everyday.
What am I doing,
What am I doing,
What am I doing,
What am I doing,
What am I doing,
What am I doing,
What am I doing,

....

I think I am a little bit too greedy,
I wanna do this
I wanna do that,
I ended up doing nothing.
I can't afford to do that anymore.

For this day onwards, I'll promise myself that I will achieve something.
and I will record it down to keep track.
Dear readers, If you hear me, let's do this together.

The clock is ticking,
my time is running out.

Time. My biggest enemy.

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Bucket list checked off: Skydiving

Last Summer was beautiful. 
I went to Russia and have a little adventure of my own.



Never in my life, I feel so alive.
But then again, I felt it.
Last Summer was beautiful because of Russia.

Friday, December 20, 2013

Wildwood, New Jersey

I have a love-hate relationship with this place.

On the first week I was there was
HOLY SHIT.WHY? 
Every-freaking-night
you either heard some gunshots or 
the sound of some motherfucker's car screeched around the corner at top speed or
some suckers living upstairs (we rented some rooms in the basement) blasting all sorts of party and rap music.
It was like the fast and the furious.

Oh America, just like the movies.

That's the place. 

Oh yeah, I'm glad that I am still alive.

That wasn't the worst part.

So, me and my friends, we decided to move.
few blocks up to a more peaceful area.
Everything seemed to be alright in the first place, 
until we figured out that something bit us in the night,
every morning, there were some unknown bug bites all around our bodies
and it was itchy.

My nightmare begins...

Sooner or later, we found out that it was the bed bugs.
It was the first time in my life to see those small evil creatures

...

FYI,
Bed bugs are parasitic insects of the cimicid family that feed exclusively on blood. The term most commonly refers to members of the genus Cimex of which Cimex lectularius, the common bed bug, is the best known as it prefers to feed on human blood although other Cimex species are specialized to other animals, e.g., bat bugs, Cimex pipistrelli (Europe), Cimex pilosellus (western US), and Cimex adjunctus (entire eastern US).

- Wikipedia, 2013.


I don't wanna put any photo of bed bug here because it's really disgusting, try google it yourself if you do not have any idea how they look like.

So the problem was, 
I had already paid the rental deposit and had signed the tenancy agreement.
If I move to another place, I wouldn't get back the rental deposit.
So, not much of a choice. I was really lucky to have this friend of mine who has been taken really good care of me. He had bought some bug spray, he told me that I am allowed to use his.

I don't really remember how the hell I got through all these shit.
But there was this one day,
I couldn't take it anymore, 
the humiliation, the stress, the heat..

I decided to talk to the land-lady regarding this issue.
I actually called CIEE regarding this problem and they told me that there's nothing much they can do since I had already signed the document.

After all the hassle, turned up that I got myself a new room.
Things seemed to get better from then on.
Weird..

Wildwood in summer 2011.

xoxo,
Jin signing off.

P/s. Not sure if I have any readers, but do let me know if you wanna know more about Wildwood.


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

My Working experience in America

So, I was a Guest Services Representative at Raging Waters Waterpark,
which is part of Morey's Piers from June till early September.

Morey's Piers is a family owned resort and entertainment company,
located on the southern New Jersey coastline,
they operate three amusement piers and two waterparks,
with over 150 attractions, serving over 3.5 million guests each year.

Sounds fun huh? Let me tell you my stories.
As an admission personnel, it was not the initial position that I was applying for,
I was actually more interested on being a ride operator instead.
However, during the job interview in Malaysia,
they decided to put me at the water park because they said that I speak good english.

They told me,
"No worries, you will have a lot of fun"

FUN?

First week of work was basically LABOUR WORK.

Scrubbing, Cleaning, Sweeping...
under the sun.

THE SUN.
THE FREAKING SUN.

I guess that was my own personal problem as I was born
in a place where there's a lot of sun,
a place where 365 days, all year long, summer.

I HATE THE SUN.

However, the sun wasn't really a problem.
At some point of time, I think I could understand what immigrant feels.

Sometimes while you are walking to work,
some people actually staring at me as if I was some kind of freak
and they said stuff like,

"I know why you are here because your country is not doing as good as ours."

I just smiled.
and I thought,

I had a better life back home, you idiot.


Also, they practice job rotation in the waterpark.
There are 5 spots:


  • Wrist banding  : putting the wrist bands on the customers' hands.
  • Entrence          : make sure every customer scans their wrist band on the scanner.
  • Bag Check      : literally checking guests' bags in case they have guns, knife or any                                     other dangerous weapons. Just kidding, alcohols and any glass-made                             containers are not allow AKA THE WORST SPOT EVER.
  • Locker              : Collect money from the guests if they need to rent a locker or to buy                                   some stuff such as sunscreen, Paranol, tampons.
  • Exit                  : greet the customers and cut their wrist bands off.

Basically,
we need to do a job rotation every hour,
which means that we need to move on to the next stop after an hour's time.

The problem is...
THE ROTATION ALWAYS MESSED UP.

ALWAYS.

and sometimes you got stuck in this spot, I called it the "worst spot" forever.
Some guests found it offensive when they were told that their bags had to be checked.

"Excuse me sir, may I check your bag please"

"Fuh, what? Are you Kidding me? 
Do I look like a terrorist to you?"

and then you have to explain,
"I just wanna make sure that there's no glass and alcohol inside.
because when a glass breaks it shatters, people with their foot bare might stepped on it so..."

and when the heat waves came, temperature rose up to 40°c
I was once stuck in this bag check spot for more than 2 hours.
3000 guests visited, they were all grumpy as the queue was long.

I was all alone in this spot, the situation kinda went outta control.

People yelling at me, saying that I couldn't speak English
and I have to apologize for checking their bags.
 Some people have really bad attitude,
they just threw their bags on the floor,
and you have to check them one by one and picked them up for the customers
with a smile on your face.

Didn't even have the time to get a sip of water. I couldn't take it.
I started to feel dizzy, and I lost my consciousness...

I was dehydrated, I had never fainted in my whole life before that.
Well, at least I was taken care of, I was sent to the first aid room.

Besides, the contract stated that the minimum hours you got is 35 hours per week,
problem is, they hired too many people, maximum working hours that I get is 42 hours and it only happened once. Looking for a second job wasn't easy, I had this feeling that people there prefer not to hire asians. Sometimes, after I deducted the rental and the expenses for food, really, there wasn't much left.

Also, my manager is an asshole, I had a feeling that she didn't really like me.
While everyone was given a chance to work at the counter, I didn't.
Hence, I decided to speak up. I asked my supervisor, the reason WHY.

Ended up that the next few days I finally got to work under the shelter, at the counter.
Oh well, it only lasted for a few days.


After that, I did not even bother. I am so sick and tired of everything.
A lot of shit happened, I figured that if I won't stop writing this post might never ends.


Oh well,
What I enjoy the most was the time that me and my friends, we get to gossip and talking about how bad this place was.
Also, I had made a lot of good friends from all over the world that I'll never forget.









Ask me once, did I regret going to this place,
No, I do not.


P/S. Not all americans are asshole, I have met good people too!

xoxo,
Jin.

Friday, November 15, 2013

My American Experience.

Okay, I actually blogged about part of my american experience before, 
but this genius here (me) had decided to delete all her previous posts and
she had already done it. Hence, I am here to share it once again.

So, what was I doing in America again?

I joined CIEE Work and Travel in USA summer program in the year 2011.
I was working as an admission personnel in a water park,
 in this place called Wildwood in New Jersey.

Well, because all the bad things that had happened to me too often that it sort of blinded me from seeing all the good things around me. So, I couldn't say that it was all bad 
but.....
I do not really like that place. 

like, if you ask me, "Will you ever visit that place again?"
Without a single thought, 
without any hesitation,
I am 100% sure that I will say,
HELL NO.

#1. Americans are racist... 
ok not all but most of them.

not to mention the whole 
CHING CHONG LING LONG PING PONG 
thing

but I got this a lot:

"Welcome to America, speak English"
a blonde woman said that to me

"Hey, cook me my Chinese food"
a black guy said that to me.

So what now?
you want me to teach you how to use the chopsticks?

#2. Americans do not know where Malaysia is.... ok maybe not all of them.

First of all,
Konichiwa is Japanese not Chinese
They never figure it out before telling me to go back to China.

I was like, but umm, I'm Malaysian.

Where's Malaysia?

Here's the problem.
Yes  I do know how to speak Chinese,
and Yes I'm a Chinese
But I'm Malaysian Chinese.
I represent Malaysia, not China.

It's true that I have a very confusing nationality.
Somehow, from what I see, Americans they think that all Asians come from China.

#3. America. Just like the movies.
They drink. and they party hard.
16 years old if you are still a virgin.
Damn there must be something wrong with you.

Not much comment on that. It's a free country yo!

Wildwood, New Jersey. Year:2011
America also made me fat and tanned.


P/s. This post was written based on my experience in Wildwood, New Jersey.
Stay tuned for my next post: My working experience in America.

xoxo,
Jin signing off.